Are You Having Trouble Being Present?

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I have an absolute love/frustration relationship with our yard. So much so that I realized recently that I probably think about it 10-200% of the time. I’ve never really had a yard except for when I was growing up and even then I only did the occasional mowing. I did try to grow tomatoes a few times (that did NOT work). As an adult I’ve always lived in places with small yards that were maintained by others.

And now. An acre and a half. Which I LOVE. I love all the space, I love the animals that come to visit, I love the possibilities. But when we moved in, there was basically no landscaping and a good deal of the yard was littered with strange objects (a porcelain doll’s arm was one of the weirdest) and a lot of glass and nails.

In my enthusiasm and eagerness to have a beautiful outdoor space (and my love of flowers and plants and tomatoes), I’ve become a Lowe’s orphan garden section junkie. This is the section where they put the plants that are not doing so well out to pasture. And mark them waaaaay down. It’s one of my faaaaavorite things to do to go and peruse this section and discover beautiful plants that I can bring back to life. I love studying them and the exotic names and all the varieties. Stella D’Oro. Hibiscus. Lantana. Lorapetalum. I love learning whether they like sun or shade. Whether they like lots of water or whether they like to be ignored.

Thing is, inevitably, in spring and fall we end up with 20+ plants still in pots in various places in the yard that are eagerly awaiting to be planted in the earth. Also inevitably, they sit. And they sit. And they sit. They do get watered and they get loved but man…we’re busy!! Planting them takes some time that we haven’t been able to find lately.

So I find myself guiltily thinking about all these beautiful plants and when the heck I’m going to plant them. A LOT. And for some reason I just recently realized that all these guilty ruminations are not helping them or me. I’m not enjoying them AND it’s making it more difficult for me to actually take the action. Basically, I’m NOT BEING PRESENT. Ha! I know I know. It took me awhile, but I got there.

It’s not that it’s inherently bad to think about the past or the future, but if we’re caught in one or the other perpetually, were missing out on our present. In this case…I’m not really enjoying my beautiful plants because I’m stuck in the future of when and how I’m going to plant them. And I’m missing the things that are actually around me when I’m not around the plants.

So…my decision is to change this thought pattern. I am focusing on enjoying these beauties. AND on allowing myself to BE WHERE I AM and to appreciate it all. Take it all in. Because it really is all here for us to enjoy.

Oh, and our tomatoes are THRIVING! :)

The Power of Taking Your Sweet, Sweet Time

This morning I woke up and I could tell it was going to be what I call a “God day” (God, Universe, Presence, All-That-Is…whatever you want to call ‘it’). I have these sometimes and they’re lovely. It means that my focus is very broad and that it feels much better and more in line to go with the flow throughout the day than to Try. To. Do. The things. On my list. I take a look at my list and choose the ones I absolutely positively must get done and throw everything else out the window.

A few weeks ago I was *very very VERY* busy and within all that busyness I lost myself. I was under a deadline and had put some extremely high expectations on myself. After the deadline had passed and the dust settled, I realized that I hadn’t been taking good care of myself. Even more importantly, I’d stopped having fun! I was exhausted and needed a rest.

I tend to like to do things intensively. I love the feeling of really digging into something and going at it for hours and hours. And days and days. But upon reflection of this last experience and others, I can see that after awhile I wasn’t fully present, which means it would have been best to stop for a bit and get back into myself.

When we’re involved in large projects or dealing with stressful situations, it often seems we don’t have the TIME to get back to ourselves. The thing is, we ALWAYS have the time to get back to ourselves. And ultimately, taking that time will save time. And be better for us physically, mentally and emotionally as well! Sure, it’s okay and even fun to burn the midnight oil at times, just always make sure you do have some down time. Take a nap. Take a walk in nature. Listen to some music with your eyes closed. Meditate. Lie in the sun and soak it up like a lizard. Do something to slowwww dowwwn for at least a few minutes when you find yourself in a revved up place.

My honey and I have both been b***s to the wall again and here’s what I’m finding is working like a charm. PRACTICAL APPLICATION: Set your phone alarm to go off every two hours (I love the Chimes alarm sound on iPhone…it’s so sweet!). When that alarm goes off, stop whatever it is you’re doing (within reason, of course) and take TWO MINUTES to breathe, set an intention, and let go of everything. After that two minutes, get back to it! ;)

And listen to your Inner Guidance. If you wake up and it feels like a God day, allow yourself to have one. If you work or if you have appointments already booked, that’s okay! You can still have a God day. Allow yourself to be quiet and listen throughout your day. Allow yourself to hand it over. Allow yourself to let go of taking anything too seriously or trying to figure it out. Whenever you mind starts to kick into overdrive, kindly thank it and let it know that you’re choosing not to think too much today.

Allow yourself to see things and experience them from a very broad perspective, as if looking down from atop a high mountain. Reconnect with yourself/the Presence. Ultimately, you’ll be so glad you did. And so will everyone around you. Most of the time you’ll find that more gets accomplished than if you’d been running around doing everything on your list and stressing about it! Give it a shot and let me know how it goes.

Big love,

Lorrie